lunacy. emptiness. panic. delusion.
12 January 2010 @ 01:58 am
master list  
updated: 09.25.13

note: some fics are f-locked and some are getting revised (unrevised chapters will remain locked). discontinued ones aren't on the list

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he's mine...only mine (completed / locked)
Yoochun came back to Korea to get back with Junsu. But will he win him back? And what happens when he finds out something about Junsu?
| 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 ||

holding back the tears (completed / locked)
Junsu and Yoochun have been lovers for a long period of time. Due to extreme frustration from their non-existent sex life, Yoochun developed a bizarre hobby of picking up girls and bringing them home to satisfy his sexual needs. Junsu, aware of the shameless cheating, lets him be. All he wishes is to be by Yoochun's side and for the man not to leave him.
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 |21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 32 | 33 | 34 | 35 | 36 | 37 ||

my chunnie's diary (completed / locked)
Yoochun’s journal entries regarding his failed attempts to confess to his bandmate-slash-secret love— Junsu.
first | second | third | fourth | fifth | sixth | seventh | eighth | ninth ||

this song (soon)
Kim Junsu is young and rich. Park Yoochun is older and poor. And even though they love each other, does love overcome everything? When love is all he can give, will it be enough?
trailer | 01 | 02 | 03

in trouble (soon)
Yoochun was contented just by looking after him from afar, but things don’t happen the way we want it to be. He becomes friends with him and that’s when he learns that he actually wants to be more than friends.

stepping into your heart (on going)
After a painful break up, Yoochun seeks solace from his best friend, Junsu who finally confesses his love for him. He takes the confession as a joke and goes on sulking in his own pain. But the longer he's crashing at his best friend's house, stumbling onto the most weird situations, and a few more confessions, Yoochun slowly develops a strong, unknown feeling for Junsu. As he finally made up his mind, Gahee comes back.
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20

i'm in love with a geekazoid (on going)
Junsu is in love with the school geek, Yoochun.
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10

looking for junsu (completed)
As he was strolling down the beach, Yoochun met someone interesting.
part one | part two ||

broken vow
“Hey, it’s me Junsu. Don’t you remember me?”

smile (locked)
“I love you too Yoochunnie!” Junsu squealed in delight. He intertwined his fingers with Yoochun’s as they both walked in his house.

the chicken and the dolphin (sequel to of friends and a confession)
Seeing his best friend get rejected, Yoochun couldn’t help but feel bad for him.

pick me!
Junsu is plain bored and comes up with a silly idea.

rebound (locked)
If being a replacement means having Yoochun’s heart, she’s willing to do anything.

september 12th
September 12, the day they would never forget.

all the love in the world
Yoochun knows what it's like to love with no boundaries.

love, call it pain
Junsu is a stupid masochist and Yoochun has to learn when enough is enough. Changmin comes in the picture and everything just gets complicated after that.

chun choding
Of parties, molestation and an unromantic confession.

that should be me
Obsession is a darker version of love.

I'm on my bed, you're on your bed. One of us is in the wrong place.

i now pronounce you
Junsu is sad and Yoochun comes to the rescue. Well, sort of.

two lines
Yoochun is pregnant. And surprise, Junsu isn't the father.

password not long enough
Exactly what the title says.

knock knock!
Yoochun tells Junsu another one of his senseless jokes, or is it?

of birthdays and chocolates
Junsu wants to give Yoochun a present for his birthday, but Changmin ruins it.

so much for being unique
Yoochun wants a unique and unexpected proposal and Junsu gives him just that.

lost in love
Things aren't always what they seem.

bad day
Junsu's having a bad day and he's out to chase a certain Park Yoochun.

junsu returns (sequel to pick me!)
Remember Junsu's little escapade at Lotte Mart? Well, he's at it again but this time, he's not alone.

and that's how you do it
Junsu thinks he's sexy but Yoochun thinks otherwise.

art appreciation
There's really nothing to be angry about.

two words
Junsu gets an A while Yoochun gets an F. Why?

happy to be changmin
Seven year old Changmin watches his older brother and decides that they should have 'the talk'.

baby it's cold outside
Yoochun wakes up at the smell of cigarettes.


without a heart (soon)
Fate brought them together.

loving you (locked)
Falling in love with a man isn't a big deal, but falling in love with your brother is.
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11 | 12

heartquake (on going)
Jaejoong feels that his husband is cheating on him. He’s not sure and yet, he couldn’t bring himself to confront him. Then enters Yunho, an annoying waiter, who offers to help him find out if his husband is indeed, being unfaithful.

kim jaejoong (locked)
No one messes with Kim Jaejoong.

he believes in me
Everyday he lives in fear that Jaejoong has had enough of the life he’s giving him but apparently, he has nothing to worry about.

jaejoong and his boyfriends
Four failed relationships after, Jaejoong might have found his happily ever after.

you remind me
Jaejoong reminds Yunho of someone he never wanted to see.

one and only

No matter what happens, son, I want you to stay strong. Never try to build up your sorrows, meet pain but never ever choose suffering.

just the two of us
Yunho comes to a conclusion that his sole purpose in life is to get betrayed.

Yunho likes Lady Gaga?

of baby names and sunsets
Jaejoong talks about his future with Yunho.

sunday morning
It's Sunday, it's Yunho's birthday and Jaejoong is the most unromantic person alive.

of bouquets and a vacation (ptb/httg verse)
After two weeks of not seeing his lover, Bonggun decides to pay him a visit.


good night, my love
Please don't take my sunshine away.


minnie hyung (locked)
"Since you're not dating Jaejoong, would you mind dating me?"

painful answer (locked)
Junsu loses contact with his boyfriend, Changmin, and is bothered to no end so he decides to pay him a visit.


perfect for you (locked)
"Never fall in love with me, Kim Jaejoong, or else you will be fired immediately."


of friends and a confession
After mustering up all his courage, Junsu decided to confess his feelings to his three-year long love interest, Jung Yunho.


happy birthday, baby min
It's his birthday but there's no reason to be happy.


the help
Yunho has been sulking all week, much to Changmin’s annoyance (he blames Jaejoong for it). So being the good maknae that he is, he decides to put an end to it and take the matter in his own hands.

the crush
The only thing he's supposed to do is help. But someone has a crush on the leader.

super junior


0430 (on going)
Lee Hyukjae is a psychiatrist who gets too attached to his druggie patient, Lee Donghae. He soon finds himself knowing more than what he needs to.
( chapters can be found here )

of masks and umbrellas
Junsu thinks Hyukjae is a coward. But Hyukjae thinks otherwise.

of airports and mistaken identities
Wherein Hyukjae encounters a case of mistaken identity.

Hyukjae goes out to buy something for his brother when he takes a side trip to the rice cake stand.

chemical imbalance
Donghae goes on a blind date with a friend's friend.

like a drug
In Hyukjae's opinion, Donghae isn't a good kisser.


jocks and joes (on hiatus)
Kyuhyun is a jock, Sungmin is an average Joe. They're together and things are just complicated, rather Kyuhyun's making things complicated.
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13

henry and the seed
There are times when Ryeowook thinks Henry doesn't make sense at all.


biggest fan
Hankyung panics when Heechul got hit by an LED board.

heechul and his boyfriends
Heechul has had at least eleven boyfriends before he found the one.

of brothers and phone calls
Hankyung tries, fails and tries again.

No one believed in them.


Yesung is a frustrating person in general and it has taken its toll on Ryeowook.

my boyfriend's betrayal
Ryeowook is cheating on Jongwoon and couldn't handle the guilt anymore.


apology accepted...not (locked)
Leeteuk is mad. And the only way he can forgive him is by letting him top for once.


love revolution
They're in love, 'nuff said.

for you it's separation, to me it's waiting
Exactly what the title says.

{kyuhyun/zhou mi}

perfect match (locked)
Zhou Mi hates Kyuhyun and Kyuhyun hates Zhou Mi. Kyuhyun is stupid and Zhou Mi is smart. This doesn't make sense so just read the story.


everything is not what it seems
Sometimes, things are not what you think it is.


In which Heechul knocks some sense into Jongwoon.


unusually unusual
Falling in love at first sight isn't something Hyukjae wished for. But he's not complaining.

hyukjae didn't know he was...
Hyukjae is in severe pain and chaos ensues. Well, not really.


now look into my eyes and tell me, i love you
Hyukjae is a twenty-seven year old teacher who has had no boyfriend since birth...until he meets Heechul.



round and round, lost and found (written with [profile] shinminji)
Heechul hurt his foot and asks Yunho for help.


that kind of face
Junsu couldn't help but notice the uncanny resemblance.


umma and appa (locked)
part 1 | part 2 ||


of highschool and a confession
Today, I told my crush I like him.


love light
Six months of being alone and away from his lover has taken its toll on him.


{lovestruck trilogy}

story i: boy meets boy ft. yunjae / completed (locked)
On a warm spring day Jaejoong, a small boy, meets tall and broad-shouldered Yunho inside a bus. Jaejoong keeps looking at the intimidating boy whose sharp eyes are hidden under his baseball cap. Jaejoong’s heart starts beating. What will happen to Jaejoong and Yunho?
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 ||

story ii: you and i ft. yoosu / completed (locked)
Kim Junsu has been mute all his life. His disability is the main reason why most people hate him. But his life slowly changed when a certain Park Yoochun came into his life.
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 ||

{rising gays of the east}

(on going)
Jaejoong announces his sexual orientation and confusion ensues.
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05


of cookies and a hug
Yunho isn't picking up his calls. Jaejoong is worried. Junsu is plain stupid.

of rants, zombies and a cake
Wherein Junsu hasn’t slept for two days, Jaejoong being responsible for it and Yoochun being the sweet and fluffy person he is.

{changmin's theories series}

changmin's nipple theory
Yoochun comes home one night from work and finds his little angel sulking.

{chat fics}

of breakups and fried hair
Wherein Changmin shamelessly makes fun of Jaejoong’s hair and everything goes wrong after that.

i see no difference (but jaejoong does)
Wherein Jaejoong isn't so pleased with the picture Changmin showed him. Junsu is being stupid. And Kibum gets his revenge.

{fly to the sky series}

i love you (locked)
So many ways to say I love you but never enough to show how much.


you and i (locked)
Taeyeon is in love with Minho, her sister's boyfriend.

fact and fiction
There is a big difference between fact and fiction, just like reality and expectation.


why are you like this
Kibum wonders how Jinki does it.


am i that stupid? (completed / locked)
Lee Taemin is shamelessly and head-over-heels in love with his boyfriend Lee Jinki, who is oddly close to his best friend, Kim Kibum. He may be naïve at times but he is not stupid to not know what’s going on.
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 ||

that should be me
Obsession is a darker version of love.

what matters most
Taemin knows what's important.

of jocks and nerds
The sole reason why Jinki is dating Taemin.

four leaf clover
If you find a four leaf clover, you have to marry me.

four times when jinki is a jerk and one time when he's stupid
Exactly what the title says.


Kibum doesn't want to hurt Jonghyun further so he decides to put an end to everything.


incomplete (completed)
All Kazuya wanted was for Jin to accept him as his brother. But Jin is intent in making his life miserable.
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 ||

nanny 911 (on going)
Jin never thought an email would change his bachelor life forever.
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05

calling love
A phone call never seemed so hard.



everything i wanted and more (on going)
Kris Wu, the temperamental rockstar, finds himself granting a fanboy's wish after said fanboy continuously rang his doorbell at six in the morning, camped out of his house and befriended his manager.
01 | 02 | 03

two fifteen
Chanyeol notices a boy in the library, on the same seat, at the same time, everyday.


happy anniversary, love
It's about time I make everyone understand one important thing.

mood: tired