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kingheechul) wrote2011-05-10 01:36 am
kingheechul) wrote2011-05-10 01:36 am
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jonghyun/key
angst ; pg13 ; drabble
Kibum doesn't want to hurt Jonghyun further so he decides to put an end to everything.
{edit: revised, rewritten, re-everything}
inspired by miss $' over. i'm not really fond of this couple but i'm itching to write something for these two just because.
Kibum is the straighforward type. He hates dilly dallying basically because he thinks it's a waste of time, which has some truth to it. And at this very moment, he's on his way to his boyfriend's apartment to break up with him. He fell out of love. Things change, people change and feelings change.
It's nerve-wracking, but he has no choice. He gave hints, has been distant, tried everything just so his boyfriend would sense that something is not right. But none of it ever worked. Upon arriving at his soon-to-be ex-lover's doorstep, he knocks at least three times before the door opens, revealing his dashing lover. "Hey," his boyfriend, Jonghyun, greets him with a hug and a soft peck on the lips. He cringes at kiss which goes unnoticed. "You hungry?"
He shakes his head, smiling albeit forced. "Can we talk?"
Jonghyun wonders why but nods anyway and leads him to the living room. Kibum knows how much Jonghyun loves him. He doesn't want to hurt him but staying with him would hurt the man even more. He just couldn't keep with their relationship when he's lost everything he feels for the man. Things are pretty messed up as it is.
Feeling bad for Jonghyun isn't an option. He has to show no mercy if he wants things to work out the way he wants it to be. "I'll cut to the chase," he starts, detaching his hand from Jonghyun's. "Let's break up."
"What? Kibum, why? Don't do this to me. Don't do this to us. You're joking, aren't you?"
"Stop it. Just stop it Jonghyun, please. It's done. We're done. Over."
Jonghyun grabs his hands, holding it for dear for life. "Did I...did I do something wrong? Tell me please. Whatever it is that I did, I'm re ally sorry baby. Please, please tell me you're just joking."
"I'm serious, Jonghyun. I am. Don't blame yourself, you're not at fault. I've been meeting someone secretly behind your back. And I just can't stand cheating on your anymore. This is what's best for us." he looks up at Jonghyun with sad eyes. Maybe feeling bad for him is okay. Although he doesn't love him the way he does before, he couldn't take seeing him hurt specially if he's the reason. "Punch me. Kick me, hate on me for all you want. You can hurt me if that will make you feel better."
Jonghyun stands up and Kibum thinks he's going to get punched but to his surprise, arms wrap around his body. The man apparently doesn't have the heart to hurt him, but he has. He has never felt so cruel.
"I love you, Kibum." he nods in the embrace, feeling tears sting his eyes. "Please be happy."
"I will. Thank you, Jjong. Thank you." he says the pet name for the last time and gives him a chaste kiss on the lips, for the last time, then makes a move to walk out the door. And out of his life.
A week has passed and Kibum hasn't heard any news from his ex boyfriend. He takes that as a good sign, assuming that he's taking the break up really well.
But things don't end up the way it's supposed to be.
One night, Kibum receives a call from Jonghyun's friend saying that the man fell deep into depression and committed suicide. He drops the phone from his hand as he cries his heart out.
jonghyun/key
angst ; pg13 ; drabble
Kibum doesn't want to hurt Jonghyun further so he decides to put an end to everything.
{edit: revised, rewritten, re-everything}
inspired by miss $' over. i'm not really fond of this couple but i'm itching to write something for these two just because.
{love is a lie, it's a lie}
Kibum is the straighforward type. He hates dilly dallying basically because he thinks it's a waste of time, which has some truth to it. And at this very moment, he's on his way to his boyfriend's apartment to break up with him. He fell out of love. Things change, people change and feelings change.
It's nerve-wracking, but he has no choice. He gave hints, has been distant, tried everything just so his boyfriend would sense that something is not right. But none of it ever worked. Upon arriving at his soon-to-be ex-lover's doorstep, he knocks at least three times before the door opens, revealing his dashing lover. "Hey," his boyfriend, Jonghyun, greets him with a hug and a soft peck on the lips. He cringes at kiss which goes unnoticed. "You hungry?"
He shakes his head, smiling albeit forced. "Can we talk?"
Jonghyun wonders why but nods anyway and leads him to the living room. Kibum knows how much Jonghyun loves him. He doesn't want to hurt him but staying with him would hurt the man even more. He just couldn't keep with their relationship when he's lost everything he feels for the man. Things are pretty messed up as it is.
Feeling bad for Jonghyun isn't an option. He has to show no mercy if he wants things to work out the way he wants it to be. "I'll cut to the chase," he starts, detaching his hand from Jonghyun's. "Let's break up."
"What? Kibum, why? Don't do this to me. Don't do this to us. You're joking, aren't you?"
"Stop it. Just stop it Jonghyun, please. It's done. We're done. Over."
Jonghyun grabs his hands, holding it for dear for life. "Did I...did I do something wrong? Tell me please. Whatever it is that I did, I'm re ally sorry baby. Please, please tell me you're just joking."
"I'm serious, Jonghyun. I am. Don't blame yourself, you're not at fault. I've been meeting someone secretly behind your back. And I just can't stand cheating on your anymore. This is what's best for us." he looks up at Jonghyun with sad eyes. Maybe feeling bad for him is okay. Although he doesn't love him the way he does before, he couldn't take seeing him hurt specially if he's the reason. "Punch me. Kick me, hate on me for all you want. You can hurt me if that will make you feel better."
Jonghyun stands up and Kibum thinks he's going to get punched but to his surprise, arms wrap around his body. The man apparently doesn't have the heart to hurt him, but he has. He has never felt so cruel.
"I love you, Kibum." he nods in the embrace, feeling tears sting his eyes. "Please be happy."
"I will. Thank you, Jjong. Thank you." he says the pet name for the last time and gives him a chaste kiss on the lips, for the last time, then makes a move to walk out the door. And out of his life.
A week has passed and Kibum hasn't heard any news from his ex boyfriend. He takes that as a good sign, assuming that he's taking the break up really well.
But things don't end up the way it's supposed to be.
One night, Kibum receives a call from Jonghyun's friend saying that the man fell deep into depression and committed suicide. He drops the phone from his hand as he cries his heart out.
no subject
it's not rushed. It's horrible.
JONGHYUN DON'T DIE
but I understand him. when the person you love more than anything else disappears from your life... it's just not worth living anymore.
I'm crying right now but I still love your fic :)
(I'm listening to Shattered by Trading Yesterday right now... maybe that makes it even worse xD)